We are moved out of our house while production takes over our basement and garage. I brought my cats to the kennel today and I cried. I hate leaving them. I know that if I were ever to hit any kind of stress during filming that my cats would be a great comfort. I just dont want them to get hurt or run out a door left open by a crew member. I miss them already. We are holed up in a hotel just for tonight. Tomorrow we are off to Vegas in the morning to host a party at MGM’s tabu. Should be an interesting night. I always surprise myself when I pack for Vegas. The dresses I wear there should be illegal. Does everyone pack a little more sexy for Vegas? I swear, that town is pure evil. We start filming again after we get back. This is the first time I have ever felt nervous going on camera. I shouldn’t be. By now I should know how to crack this system. I’m basically a reality tv expert. It’s just hard knowing what happened to us last time. The stress of a huge wedding, all the details, AND being on camera just defeated us in every way. We cracked and melted down. But we survived. We survived what would have broken up even the strongest of couples. I have great faith in us and our ability to cope this time. That is the very reason we are doing this again. It’s not about the money, we are doing just fine there. This is about showing who we really are. I am not sayin we were fake before. It’s just unrealistic to think you are going to see someone’s true self in such a fucked up situation. (wedding,planning,family issues, and camera’s!) We can’t walk away from this looking how we did the last time. We love each other very much and we want people to see why. And on that note we would walk blissfully into the sunset as we say goodbye to the camera’s following our lives.
I have lived my life on camera since I was 20…I’m going on 4 years. I have NO regrets. People have seen the best and worst of me. They have seen the ups and downs of my life. It’s funny knowing I can pop in a tape and watch the very second my life would change forever. That was the day I stepped on America’s Next Top Model wide eyed and totally out of my element. I can watch my transition from a Joliet Trash talking rebel to a Joliet Trash talking rebel in disguise. ; ) j/k Seriously though, I just never thought anything like this could happen to me. I was an ex-junkie waitress trying to figure out how to put all the pieces back together. Before you know it, I win a tv show and start the climb to where I am now. VH1 really made me. Since the Surreal Life my career has soared. It blows my mind to no end. And now I am saying goodbye to the very thing that brought me here. I know to never say you will never do something again. Sometimes you end up doing it and looking like an idiot. I can say that it’s been a really fun ride, but I am ready to jump off. I am so glad so many people have been able to enjoy it with me. It sure has been a fuckin blast riding with you all!
I won’t be able to blog for a bit so I hope everyone has a kick ass week. I will share info once I get it on when MFB3 is expected to air. Wish me luck kiddies. I’m about to fall into the rabbit hole again. =)
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I just loved what she wrote so much I had to share it. She has come so far, you go girl!
